Blissdom, Brene and Breakthroughs
Well, as always, Blissdom is over and my mind, she is a’brimming! Honestly, it’s going to take me a while to soak in and sort through all of the information and emotions I experienced, so it’s probably a little soon for me to try to hit the highlights with you guys (though I am dying to!) But I did want to kickstart the process by sharing a video of Brene Brown, who was the opening keynote speaker this year.
She was, quite simply, amazing.
So many of the things she said really resonated with me, and I have had a very interesting conversation going on in my head ever since– I’m anxious to hear your reactions to what she has to say. This video is not from Blissdom, this is a talk she gave at a TED conference in Houston in 2010. TED is “a small non-profit dedicated to Ideas Worth Sharing. It started out in 1984 as a conference bringing together people from three worlds: Technology, Entertainment, Design.” It brings together the world’s most fascinating thinkers and doers who are challenged to give the talk of their lives in 18 minutes. Brene Brown’s TED talk has gone viral, and you may have already seen it reposted on Facebook or somewhere. Though this is not identical to the keynote address she gave at Blissdom, it is very similar.
Take a few minutes and listen…
Leave a comment and tell me what you think. And here’s what I’d really love to hear from you:
What makes you feel vulnerable– unguarded and unprotected?
I’ll start, OK?
One of the things that makes me feel the most vulnerable these days is the realization that my days of having Madi Rose under my roof are numbered, that the kind of ‘mothering’ on a daily basis I have done since we brought her home from the hospital is almost over– and I’m just not sure that I did the best job I could have done.
Now I am NOT fishing for all of you to jump in and try to reassure me by telling me what a wonderful mother I am– I know I haven’t screwed up on a major level, I haven’t beaten her or sold her to gypsies or anything. But in my heart of hearts, I know that there are gaps in my mothering, there are areas where I dropped the ball or emotionally bailed out. And if I see any faint echo in Madi that makes me think I have left her lacking in some area that she is going to need to be strong in, I just feel so naked and exposed– like somebody peeked behind my confident, happy-go-lucky exterior and saw the confused, self-doubting, second-guessing incompetent person I sometimes feel I am. Please God, let my mothering have been ‘good enough’…
(Now it’s your turn.)